Replace

Put him on a pedestal, i look up. The greatness i see. But there is a shadow overcasting him. Is it me? or is it his past. He says he hates her and that he loves me.

But i cannot help but wonder, am i just a replacement?

The light

To be alone can be a crime

A betrayal to yourself

Your soul and mind.

This poison tip upon your tongue

Pierces the very fragile heart

We humans live not for society

We are made by Gods

To live a life of dignity

Cut my heart out and throw it against the hardest of walls

I may shatter in pieces

But i will not kneel

I will not yearn for revenge

I simply ask if it could be mended

I simply ask if we can be mended

Down on my knees i have prayed

That one day my eyes be pried wide open

To see a wonderful world

Where there is no need to be in search of salvation

Where greed can never be a taunting whisper upon our ears

Forgiveness builds a heart of gold

Hate builds the very darkness in our souls

Hold out your hand and grab hold of that darkness

Within that fist, that fist of hope

That darkness will burst into the light

And you let go

Let yourself fall,

Let your heart run free

Breathe in the light so that the darkness will burn

the big bang tonight

glad i came to you

sssssshhhhhhhhhhhhh

shut up already goodness gracious

a dream?

It kills me to know that i will love you forever.

at the same time, it kills me to know that maybe deep down you might not actually care enough for my love

or perhaps i'm just paranoid.

perhaps i'm just looking for that long lost love of mine.

and i happen to stumble upon you

and you happen to be there to comfort me.

but are you really there?

is this a dream?

i just can't get enough. is that sad or should i be glad?

find your teenage dream

quoting

Forgiveness is the easy part

Loving beyond the hurt is what will be hard

viva la pop

a small reminder

Got outta bed early with danny dear. (He's got work at 8am)
Freezing cold outside. Waited for a bus, yet had to wait for the second one (no thanks to me having to have bought the wrong zone ticket)
At Knox , a school girl gets on the bus, noticed how she checks her hair, looks around the bus hoping for a nice guy to come say hello.

cute, that used to be me.

here's to you

flying high

24herbs

champion

..born a champion...

the meaning of

open up my eyes

and i see

you

the meaning of self indulge

is just by kissing you

i'm selfish to want

i'm childish to love

lollipop, cotton candy

so sweet, so in love

I close my eyes

and i see

you

the meaning of self abuse

is just by hurting you

i'm ignorant to feel

i'm desperate to kill

ecstacy, cigarretes

so bitter it kills

stars

the stars

so bright

light up the sky

i feel alive

the stars

they shine

so bright

high up in the sky

twinkle twinkle

there they are

high up above

the dark blue clouds

the stars

so bright

they smile

all night

the stars

i tried

so hard to be

to be like them

twinkle twinkle

there they are

high up above

the dark blue clouds

the sky

the sky is blue

can it be red?

or can it be purple?

green perhaps?

or orange?

whatever color you see the sky as, it's not going anywhere.

the faces we see everyday, they tell a different story

there are sad faces

happy faces

pitiful faces

angry faces

(don't forget faces that just annoy you)

but they are faces after all, aren't they?

you can't' chase them away

you can't hide them, even if you try

it's always there

like the sky, so blue

or red, or purple.

green or orange.

just a little bit

before i knew it

i lykke li

you are the sun & moon

creamfields 2011!

i'm broke. WHY?!

a journey beyond

each step feels like a constant linger

have a stretch

light

E.T.

lurking within, a sense of insecurity

this feeling it burrows inwards

strong, firm.

mambo

second that

its so wild

its a wild wild roller coaster ride

i warn you

you better hold on tight

so sorry

i wasn't able to share the thrill

but hey, guess what

i'm doing fine, thanks to you

the crazy ups and downs

the silly jokes about

nothing comes better than this

this feeling is just bliss

go round and round the carousel

your bound to find a sobbing soul

if you see it's true beauty

grab hold of it and say hello

dream while you can

count the stars above

Don't forget

To smile to the moon

lost & found

making sure is an uncertainty

cause we are all blinded from the future

the choices you've made

might be a mistake

you think twice

you are afraid

of the hurt and the pain

let it in

fill your heart and soul

find your place

we are all apart of this world

happiness is scary

you don't know when it comes crashing

but you never know anything for certain

i know i can fall

and he will be there

cause i've got my heart wrapped up in his hands

so i know nothing can break it

true love, is not when you find it.

it is when it finds you, when you believe in it.

:)

do you get that feeling?

must this post have a title? oh, wait. I just gave it one.

despite going to bed around 2.30 in the morning, i somehow managed to get up, eyes wide open at 5 in the morning. My days are swell.

Been stalking people on facebook since the early hours of the day (nothing much to stalk anyways though). I'm a stalker. I know i stalked you for starters. Should probably stop doing that. Stopped reading you so that's an improvement, well at least i try.

Kevin's going to KL with dad for his interview. Don't think it's doing him justice having him to decide on what to tell Ana. That feeling sucks, i know.

Is 21.12.2012 actually real? like FOR REAL? cause the idea of even thinking it is ridiculous let alone have a full conversation on it with someone.

Death is the answer to life's questions. So BRING IT! (if you were even true 21.12.2012)

pffffft...bhaaaaaaaaaaaargh.

that's how i express frustration. =/

I miss dancing. clubbing. But i couldn't be bothered having to deal with guys always trying to get a grind on with you. It's just plain sad. Hence gay bars work better. Gay guys are awesome. Manlier than straight guys since some have the guts to shout out from the rooftops...GAY PRIDE! i love'em.

I hate being with you but i miss being with you when i'm not with you which makes me hate being with you even more when i know that i won't really be with you i'll just be..with you. What do i see in you. You're just an average guy. I think i have bad taste in dudes. Maybe i'm gay, or maybe i swing both ways.

No i'm straight. def.

HELLO SUN!

smile at me i smile at you.

on this very day

let me hate you, make me hate you
i love you, and i'd like it too if you love me too

but mich, lets just get back to reality.

reality is, he doesn't. Chances are indeed very very low.
so,
let me hate you.

make me, hate you.

as a man

you've managed to have me falling for you.
and it has been holding me back for as long as i can remember.
one last kiss and a goodbye
that is a definite goodbye, i cannot
therefore i am weak
and......

bloody joke

i got hit on the chin by kevin's phone.
i laid my hands on my mum's pot of cactus.
my life is a comedy.
period.

Sleep I

i play movies over and over again so that i can sleep. Its not a big deal really so i don't know what the fuss is all about. You can't even hear anything from the laptop with the distance of my desk to my bed. I have insomnia and i do not enjoy it honestly. I can sleep with Daftpunk, Linkin park, MOS playing from my stereo in the afternoon. I'm just slightly insecure when it comes to sleeping at night, maybe, i think. I like to have voices/sounds around me. I sleep when my dad is driving, even at short distances. I'm a fairly odd person since childhood. And getting weirder by the second. It gets on my family's nerves that i play movies while i'm asleep and i strongly refuse that someone stop the movie. Kevin might just say i'm being paranoid, or being afraid of the dark or something like that, using his psychology on me. But, i'm not afraid of the dark. I just enjoy listening to things, just anything. But at times i do love to be left alone in silence. Not many know when i'd like that but some of them do, which i'm thankful for.


what the hell am i even talking about . . .
i miss you

superglue, you are my savior

i finally got the chance to wear my cat earring that ji gave me as a christmas gift last year. It broke off and i qas indeed quite sad about that. However, fear not...superglue is there to save the day. and now i can wear it again. I am happy.

what a shame

Justin bieber has a 3D movie.
Justin bieber is AMA 2010 Entertainer of the year.
Justin biebier worked with Usher.

so effin what?
i've seen kids with far more talent than he does.

perhaps the end of the world is coming.

tonight