A personal comment on the fictional novel "Twilight"

what's the deal with twilight?
is it a crash between the X-men Mutants and the Interview with a vampire
or a mixture of Girl Next Door with Superman with the occasional favorite theme of a hott, gentle, bloodsucking vampire man/boy falling in love with a mortal female thus fantasizing of a forbidden love between the two?
cause honestly, vampire movies lately just get me confused with the traditional vampiric traits.
What happened to the good old movies like, "Blade" or "Queen of the Damned"...classic vampiric horrors?
Mankind created such captivating fiction fantasies and yet to one day misguiding the true characteristics and traits of these "fictional" characters/stories.
I find to be a pity and a waste.
Sure that lately women dream of being with someone that they cannot be with or someone who only exists in their so called "romantic fantasies"
Everything is going in the wrong directions, i find it painful to be absorbing such 21st century B.S. fictional stories.

was it worth it?

I'm getting my education in a different country. It's considered quite far from my home, to me of course. But the reason that i'm there...the choice i made that brought me to that place...i'm starting to think that it wasn't worth it. Not by any chance...and i regret it so much that i feel like i'm in hell.
I feel anger, frustration, sorrow...i'm so alone. People tell me that i should be thankful that i even get a chance to be here. But if there's another chance for me to go home, home where i feel loved, i feel safe...i would give anything to have that chance! Because there is nothing one can do to erase the past of the choices made but to only wait for another time to make a better choice, to learn from the mistake, to make a turn from the wrong direction taken.
I keep thinking to myself, is my happiness worth losing everything, even the happiness i already had, that i didn't notice was there all along? Is my ONLY happiness worth giving up the happiness i get from my family? Is it?!
I feel so lost, deserted, non-existing...I wanna turn back time so badly, i truly do...
I can no longer bare the pain i have from not being with my family. I want to be strong, i want to be independent...but is that worth giving up every joy i once had?
Depression is what i'm going through, and i fear to let my family know...because i love them so, so much, i don't want them to worry.
The fear of letting my family down, my family name...to bring the family name to shame, is the only fear i have. And yet it feels like it's already taken over me, my thoughts...it's like a drug, shots kept going in but ... it's only fear... why is this?
I need help, but i want to be strong...
Was each and every decision i made worth having this torture, every second of my life?!

the weirdest dream i've had since the last one

"i opened my eyes, and there i was, sitting on the bench outside a soccer game. But it wasn't the world cup, it wasn't the UEFA cup, just a simple friendly match. Being a fan of British soccer teams, I'd think that i'd be dreaming about the Manchester United or West Ham. But it appeared to me that the players were the Argentinian team! I'm just thinking in my mind 'WTF'! As i was still under the confusion of the dream, a teacher of mine came over to me, Mr Scott. He asked if i would like to be a part of the team. "Your playing in the team?!" Of course i was shocked. Why is Mr Scott in the Argentinian team?! He's bloody British, he's in love with the British team! Now i got even more confused, but heck, i love soccer so i said "sure, i'll join in the fun. Nothing better to do anyway." So, there i was, playing soccer with the fellas! It was great and we won! HAH! It was about lunch time i guessed and so was off to lunch, duh. Was walking down the stairs when Scotty came over to ask whether he could hitch a ride with me and my dad (No idea why my dad was there but yeah, he was.)and i we offered if Scotty would want to join us for lunch and yes he agreed to. Cool, and we went looking for the car, well, more like a humvee! I thought my dad was lost when he walked up to the humvee, trying to get in it. But apparently it had 'WGF4M' on the plate, which meant WONG FAMILY.........i know, this dream is down right weird. MOVING ON! As we were about to get on the humvee, i saw my friend Savindhi, with her...other...two...friends...who happened to be maneaters.....yes, maneaters, i repeat, MANEATERS! Shocked and terrified, my dad stepped on it and the next thing i knew was i ended up on the front porch of...OUR..BEACH HOUSE...! WOOT!! And the funny thing that happened on the porch, was when I aksed Scotty why is his first name 'ORLANDO'...which isn't, it's actually Jonathan. "What?! Orlando? No...You know my name Michelle. How on earth did you get that my name is Orlando?" he said. "Oh yeah, huh.....why did i think it's Orlando?" I said to myself then. All of a sudden, there was a flash back scene, where i see Meg (a friend of mine) writing the name 'Orlando Scott' on the school board. And then I was just talking to myself, saying "Oh, I see now, haha...Meg.." GOD, that was just awkward and pathetic! Then I was back to reality, and i woke up, finding that I'm close to being late to school! Bugger!

are ppl in penang blind or uneducated?

went for cheng beng today and so was dragged outta bed aroud 7am. Went the our first destination for cheng beng, which was somewhere near to PCGS. after we were done there we went to the sleeping buddha place(can't rmb what's it called). that was when i got really annoyed. not sure since when but notices were put up to remind ppl not to burn candles, incenses and those paper things. but the ppl just won't bother with the notice. they still do it, burning stuff in there. did they forget that it's a tourist site as well? so yeah, pretty pissed at these ppl cuz they make such a mess. i'm just thinking their either uneducated or blind that they couldn't read the notice. it's a god damn notice for a reason. you have to NOTICE a notice. ppl....

lin yu zhong aka sony cyber-shot promo guy

Singer's Name: Lin Yu Zhong
He is 27 years old and his talents discovered when he was entertaining in a pub when he was in college. His songs are alright(i'm not a fan). His taste in music is something like lee hom's which is not better than lee hom's.
He's also known as the sony cyber-shot promo guy. He was in gurney today, though i didn't know who he was at all until my friend took a hard time to explain it to me. I'm not familiar with asian artists, i prefer sticking to the ones i know. To be honest, he's not that good looking but chicks seem to dig him so i must be the weird one.

addiction

i'm getting addicted to muse but that doesn't mean i'm becoming emo. they know good music and i appreciate their work. So don't go round calling me emo when i listen to their songs. i know you say that cuz you feel insecure and you are wanting attention. just don't say that i'm emo, music doesn't determine whether a person is goth, emo or simply pathetic. music is music, it is art and ppl appreciate it in their own way.



(my fav song is "sunburn") :P

rockstar

heard of "rockstar" by nickelback? if you haven't, you should! And when you do, listen to the lyrics, it's awesome. But if you already have, good on ya! :)

here's the vid

audition

today was quite an interesting day for me. i was just minding my own business till my neighbour gave me a call. she asked if i were to be interested in attending this thingo where a singer was attending and i'm like :" ok, i need a break from work anyway." so off we went to gp and just took a few snaps of him and went off window shopping. she did buy that cute little thing from the movie cj7. after a while, i spotted this star search thing. and i found out more info bout it. it turned out to be this search for a few cast members in a comedy film that singer was gonna be in. so i thought, maybe i should try it out and i did. doubt that i got it cuz i think they thought that i was too young (was probably the youngest to audition). Guess they just thought that i'm still in school and they don't wanna ruin my future or crap like that. i understand, but at least i gave it a shot. wasn't that bad. ppl did enjoy my audition and they think i would get in but the age and the prob with where i'm at at the moment for my eds, guess they couldn't.

Water Tennis

As the only active player to accomplish the career Grand Slam, Serena Williams is comfortable playing on a variety of tennis surfaces.
But on Tuesday Williams stepped away from traditional hard, grass, and clay courts to take part in the world’s first game of tennis on water.
Standing on top of a 110 foot swimming pool at the new Gansevoort South Hotel’s exclusive 22,000 square foot rooftop retreat, Serena enjoyed a friendly hit with ATP star Rafael Nadal.
It took an underwater construction crew seven days to build two invisible platforms at either end of the pool using a combination of acrylic sheets and tubes.

wow..water tennis now huh..just one question, how do you bounce the ball?

Volleyball Match

yesterday i attended one of my closest friend's volleyball match. It was a good match, but I'd have to say that the competition wasn't tough enough. The intensity of the game wasn't quite out there. For example, Dalat. The girls in the Dalat team were huge and muscular but, they lack the technique. If they worked hard enough and tried a little more patience they would seriously kick butt out on the court. But i guess their lack of skill was an advantage to the Union High team. The girls did a great job. The serve and the spikes were beautiful. That day was an easy match for the Union High team. I may not be around in pg much but I'm still a union girl at heart. The second they hit the score of 25, relief was in the air, i couldn't be happier for the girls. Though was surprised that Heng Ee won this time. I guess one can never hold on to number 1 forever. I do hope the girls bring back the gold for today. It's a state match and I'm pretty sure there's gonna be some tough competition out there.

It just ain't fair!

Sometimes I wonder what's going on in the world. I met someone that is so amazing, so generous, so full of joy. This person is a great mentor to me, to all my friends. I may not have known this person for long, but i know enough to care for that person.
One day, you see the person you care so much, filled with laughter and energy and the next thing you know, in two weeks time their not coming back, ever. It's not fair, why does someone with a heart of gold, suffer a fate so dark. I guess there never will be a happy ending for everyone. Life is just tough on us. But it kills me to know that people whom i love are leaving forever. It's not fair...

Thaipusam

Thaipusam is a Hindu festival, celebrated mostly by the Tamil community on the full moon in the Tamil month of Thai (Jan/Feb). But i'm talking about the night after, where people will be dancing and enjoying themselves on the streets.
Have you ever thrown a coconut?
I HAVE! Well, just this once......
It's quite thrilling. But you can't just throw one when you see one. You have to pile up the coconuts like a pyramid, light a few coconuts with fire (just a small flame). Once you've done that, START THROWING!
Caution: may cause swelling on feet or injuries if thrown randomly

It's a fun thing to do. You just smash the coconuts, as many as you can get. Don't worry about the mess. They hire people to clean up the shells.
But this night isn't just about coconuts, you can pay your respects to the Hindu Gods. It's a good thing to do. But it will be very crowded. You know the Indian population, i don't have to explain to you about the crowd.

I had a great time. Now i know it's fun to throw a coconut, even though it may be painful if it hits your feet. *ouch*